Self Reflection_30/05/2025

Life, comes with it's own flavours. Sometimes it is bitter, sometimes salty, sometimes sweet and sometimes flavourless. Today night was tasting bitter for me. I was questioning my choice in life. Complaining the almighty and of course my family for all the misery I was going through. Like any other week independent girl, I have also blamed my career choice for everything. Feeling like crying, but as I was in a public place was not able to do so. To distract myself I started watching a movie in my laptop. After sometime on the other side of the glass wall suddenly I saw a woman. A cleaning leady was working at 2 am. The moment we made an eye contact she smiled at me. I smiled back to her. Suddenly I felt good. I don't know that lady, I don't know what made her work at this late night, but she was grateful for whatever she had and it was reflected from her whole existence. After sometime I went to the washroom and found that in the floor another aged lady, wearing the dress of a cleaning staff, sitting with her eyes closed. It seemed that her health is not permitting her to work this late at night, but due to some compulsion she was working. Then I realised that I never had to sleep on empty stomach, there was always roof above my head, I have so many facilities in my life that I forgot that they exist. Instead I keep on complaining about staff I am missing or I don't have. I keep on criticize myself or my family members for every small thing that doesn't go as per the plan that I forgot to appreciate whatever I have. I think this is my distorted cognition which may be a result of conditioning as well thats the reason for all my misury. From today I am promising myself and the universe that I will be more appreciative and will complain less. I really need to change my outlook towards life. I really need to trust my deity and the bigger plan the universe has for me. If I can't reach beyond my smallest self, then how I can help those who are in need? How I can serve my purpose in this universe?